It’s a question I’ve been loathe to answer up until recently as it feels similar to a magician giving away the secrets that make the trick work. However, upon reflection, I want to be honest and authentic about how and why I paint - so here we go.
The truth is that when I get an emotion so big and so overwhelming that I don’t know what to do with it, I paint. I don’t plan my paintings. I don’t have a set idea for what will happen. Some I paint in one sitting, and some I paint and then come back to over and over for several days or even weeks.
I intuitively paint, and by that I mean, I paint to express how I’m feeling in that moment. Each painting is totally unique because those feelings are unlikely to present in exactly that way again.
My work is not something I can duplicate easily because to me each painting is a time capsule - a memento of the person I was when I made it. Each version of me is fleeting, because like all humans I change and learn and grow.
I say all this not to add some kind of grandeur to my work or my process, but to try to explain that I may never paint the painting you love again. I might paint something like it, I might paint something in the same ball park, but that one you really love - once it’s gone it’s gone.